noveldepot Chapter 145 He Yuran's View
Chapter 145 He Yuran's View
Chapter 145 He Yuran's View
The bedroom lights were off.
Although it was daytime, the curtains blocked out the outside light, leaving the room in a semi-dark state. On the bed, He Yuran held Shen Zixin's upper body in her arms, embracing him like she was comforting a child, and the two remained in that position without saying a word.
He Yuran should have been happy to have such close contact with Shen Zixin. However, seeing Shen Zixin's current state, she couldn't be happy at all.
Noah has already told her everything.
The crimes committed by the woman named "Su Qingyuan".
Shocked?
Of course.
A "sister" you've known day and night for ten years turns out to be a murderer who steals other people's lives.
As the de facto "fourth member" of the family, He Yuran also regards "Lu Yue" as her "older sister".
"Xiao Ran is having dinner today too? Come on in, my brother cooked too much today."
"What are you talking about? You're already part of our family."
"When are you and your brother getting your marriage certificate? That way, he can truly become part of our family!"
"Oh, what's there to be shy about!"
At first, He Yuran also cautiously observed this other woman who was equally important to Shen Zixin.
—This was her instinctive sense of crisis.
However, she later discovered that Lu Yue's feelings for Shen Zixin and her were genuine, without a trace of pretense—true "family" affection. Such familial affection posed no threat to her position in Shen Zixin's heart.
On the contrary, this "older sister" took meticulous care of her and blessed her and Shen Zixin like family. This was one of the few sources of warmth that He Yuran could feel outside of Shen Zixin.
For a moment, He Yuran couldn't bring herself to hate this "older sister".
However, another, even stronger emotion flooded her heart like a torrent.
—It is pain.
It wasn't myself, but him.
He Yuran looked down at Shen Zixin in her arms.
She could sense that beneath this silent shell, Shen Zixin's soul was undergoing a form of excruciating torture.
Compared to his suffering, how bizarre the truth was, and how despicable Su Qingyuan's behavior was, had become irrelevant.
In He Yuran's mind, only one thought remained.
Ah Xin — it hurts so much.
"——Yu Ran."
A deep voice came from her embrace.
"What do you think of her?"
He Yuran certainly knew who "she" referred to.
How should she answer? He Yuran closed her eyes, and the face of "Lu Yue" appeared in her mind.
She had never met the real Lu Yue.
For He Yuran, Su Qingyuan, who had the face of "Lu Yue", was the real "Sister Lu Yue" in her mind.
She sympathized with the woman's loneliness.
Yes, compassion.
Because she herself had once been a prisoner confined in endless loneliness. She understood better than anyone the crazy things people would do to grasp a single ray of light when the whole world was reduced to a single ray.
Su Qingyuan's light is Shen Zixin.
And his own light is also Shen Zixin.
From this perspective, they might be—the same kind of people.
However, no matter how much he sympathized with her, he couldn't change her actions. And what did it matter how genuine Su Qingyuan's feelings for them were?
Therefore, the result is obvious.
"Su Qingyuan's actions are absolutely unforgivable."
Yes, it's unforgivable.
He Yuran said to herself once again in her heart.
The woman who caused A-Xin so much pain—I—absolutely cannot forgive her.
"So—what do you think I should do with her next?"
Shen Zixin's faint voice continued to emanate from He Yuran's embrace.
Actually, Shen Zixin had asked Noah this question before she left the house earlier today. Noah said that in her timeline, she had moved out of the house. Later, Su Qingyuan tried to follow her, but Noah simply chased her away.
But in this situation—it can't be as simple and direct as with Noah, because Xiaoling is at home. The crux of the matter is, how do I explain all this to Xiaoling?
He Yuran also realized this problem.
Qin Xiaoling was also a child who came from that laboratory. She was only six years old when the "unexpected natural disaster" occurred. It could even be said that she had almost no concept of the "real Sister Lu Yue" in the laboratory.
However, after the disaster, Xiaoling was also arranged to live with Shen Zixin and "Lu Yue" as an orphan.
At the time, the Civil Defense Bureau's Disaster Relief Committee used this method to allow the children in the laboratory to live together and enjoy some family warmth, which was a very normal practice.
Otherwise, the three of them would require three guardians to take care of them regularly. Having them live together would only require one guardian. Furthermore, "Lu Yue" was already eighteen years old at the time, considered an adult, and could also help take care of her younger siblings in many situations.
Therefore, in Xiaoling's memory, her perception of Lu Yue was entirely that of a "fake Lu Yue," and she never had that kind of bond with the "real Lu Yue." In this way, her feelings for Su Qingyuan would be more sincere and pure, and could even be described as completely genuine emotions.
Xiaoling is likely to fall into a similar dilemma as He Yuran – whether she can accept the fact that her loving sister is actually a despicable person.
It's fair to say that if it weren't for the fact that "Su Qingyuan caused A Xin pain," He Yuran would have been in a real predicament regarding this matter.
Will Xiaoling feel disgusted with Lu Yue because of her brother's suffering? Or will she feel a little pity for her?
"Should we just tell Xiaoling directly?"
He Yuran asked tentatively. She knew very well that the current daily routine in this family could not continue. There was no way that Shen Zixin and Su Qingyuan could have the idea of "pretending to have a good relationship for the sake of their sister".
There's no point in hiding it; Xiaoling will find out sooner or later anyway.
"I'll have to tell her sooner or later. But—I need to pull myself together quickly, otherwise—who will comfort Xiaoling then—"
"It's okay to indulge yourself a little, to be sad for a while," He Yuran gently stroked Shen Zixin's hair. "There's no need to rush these things."
"—No, I can suffer, but I can't stay depressed forever." Shen Zixin struggled to sit up from He Yuran's soft breasts. "I—must pull myself together now."
In the dimly lit room, it was difficult to see his expression clearly. However, He Yuran could sense that her childhood sweetheart seemed to have regained some of his spirits.